I am afraid I won't have much time this week to devote to my blog entry. My list of accomplishments and to-do's is too big and consuming for me to spend time indulging in thoughtful analysis of my life or the world around me. A few of the things I accomplished this week are:
1) Being a complete and total bitch to everyone around me for no reason at all, especially to those I love the most like my husband and son.
2) Talking shit about people I don't like and a good chunk of the people I do like to anyone who would sit still long enough to listen, all in a piss-poor attempt to make myself feel better.
3) Acting entitled and put-out when my job actually required some hard work.
4) Taking everything personally, since I am indeed the center of the universe.
My to-do list for this week is chock full of more exciting things for me to do, including:
1) Spending an inordinate amount of time consumed with self-loathing, fear and regret.
2) Pondering my mis-spent youth and all the wrong roads I took along the way.
3) Continuing to take everything that happens around me personally.
4) Being completely self-centered....even when I manage to make myself think about you, all I really think about is how you affect me.
5) Trying to get my super-sized ego to shut the fuck up.
And so, you can see why the blog has to take a backseat to these important activities. I am just busy, busy, busy!
I have to run, I have some more bad decisions and years' past conversations to re-play in my head.
1 comment:
Keep coming back, my love! The mind never stops but it gets easier to ignore it. Adding a five minute breathing meditation to your to-do list will change your life beyond your wildest dreams. But then what will you do with all that time freed up?! Regale us with more of your brilliant and lovely wit! From one who's been there,
Melissa B.
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